This took me bit of a while writing…thinking rather. I got a few comments on my blog. I mean really few. But I appreciate that people took out time to even read that stuff. One of them was ‘its hard to keep up a blog’. I definitely agree with this. But it made me think on a larger question which needs to be addressed (gosh this is such a boring line… but anyways I am not the one who is reading it :P )
So what exactly are the things which I consider hard..hmmmm…
Maintaining a blog… no doubts here… specially when you are not sure whether people are even reading it or not.
Getting up early in the morning… such a headache
Or sleeping early in the night for that matter
Attending classes at 8 in the morning (torture)
Trying not to doze off in the class
Trying to cut out the noise (read prof’s voice) so that I can read the newspaper and maybe solve a crossword (more constructive :))
Trying to study when you know there are so much better things to do
Finishing a report a few minutes before/after the deadline
Eating the worst food of my life in the hostel’s mess (disastrous)
Resisting the temptation to have a frappe every time a cross nesci (which is no more :( )
Sneaking out of the hostel without your seniors watching ( for the fear of being caught for their stupid chores… uugghh… I hate them so much)
Asking a boy anything (well over my comfort zone :P )
Trying not to think too much…
And the list goes on… forever…
But do I really consider all this hard… maybe not…And do I really CARE…
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Friday, July 10, 2009
Ending....
I never realized that ending can be so abrupt …not until I saw it myself… it was my Granny….
That day…. was so… surreal, odd.. I saw my mother crying uncontrollably. Everyone came and sympathized… I wanted to cry too… maybe to show that I am feeling sad… I was feeling sad…
But somehow tears…they were hard to come… I was in shock actually…
Terrible shock… I wasn’t prepared at all for anything like this…. I never thought that this could happen to us… it always happened to people who were very old… never realizing… how old my granny had become…
Our home… Didn’t even look like ours… I felt like standing in the middle of the room… afraid… if I go close to the walls… I would be consumed…
I loved her with all my might… all the intensity… I used to love going to her place during our summer vacation… it was always a treat… listening to her telling us stories…or just playing with her ….
She always inspired me… she was a doctor. But she never wanted me to become one.. and this was a welcome change… as somehow my parents too thought I would be a better doctor…
It was me who gave her the last glass of water…
I was never asked how I felt about this… and neither did I speak up… for the fear of hurting others..
I miss her so much….
That day…. was so… surreal, odd.. I saw my mother crying uncontrollably. Everyone came and sympathized… I wanted to cry too… maybe to show that I am feeling sad… I was feeling sad…
But somehow tears…they were hard to come… I was in shock actually…
Terrible shock… I wasn’t prepared at all for anything like this…. I never thought that this could happen to us… it always happened to people who were very old… never realizing… how old my granny had become…
Our home… Didn’t even look like ours… I felt like standing in the middle of the room… afraid… if I go close to the walls… I would be consumed…
I loved her with all my might… all the intensity… I used to love going to her place during our summer vacation… it was always a treat… listening to her telling us stories…or just playing with her ….
She always inspired me… she was a doctor. But she never wanted me to become one.. and this was a welcome change… as somehow my parents too thought I would be a better doctor…
It was me who gave her the last glass of water…
I was never asked how I felt about this… and neither did I speak up… for the fear of hurting others..
I miss her so much….
A Dig... ;)
I am not a travel freak but I don’t mind it either. I have been abroad before but when you see those intern (read abroad) pics….uugghh…Damn it. I should have taken it more seriously. But anyways…. No hard feelings against those who went ( but I m still sulking.. )
So what did it take you guys to get an intern abroad…hmm.. a few thousand apps ( maybe..) .. a few night outs… Worth it, worth it….
So first of all Congratulations to you all…
Have you ever heard of heartburns because some have a hot spouse and some don’t …of course you have….
And have you heard of heartburns because some got an intern abroad and some ( read I ) didn’t …of course you have again…
So amidst all this sulking lets see what did I do in these holidays…Hmmmm… sleeping at 2 in the night…getting up at 10…being pampered by my mom like anything…eating just about everything on my wish list… sleeping at odd times…. chatting and Oops! I forgot occasional work on my project report.
Am I still sulking???…I don’t know actually…
Its hard to erase pictures of some smiling faces literally spoiling the beautiful scenery (sorry I had to write this.. please don’t ask for ANY explanations… ( no offence meant please) )
So are you people enjoying….ofcourse you are, why am I even asking this..… But then lets look at this…am I enjoying myself?
And I small voice inside me says…. yes… I am…. and that is what… is important…So why this dig at all…well…coz maybe sometimes…its just so liberating…to vent out your frustration for no reason… :)
So what did it take you guys to get an intern abroad…hmm.. a few thousand apps ( maybe..) .. a few night outs… Worth it, worth it….
So first of all Congratulations to you all…
Have you ever heard of heartburns because some have a hot spouse and some don’t …of course you have….
And have you heard of heartburns because some got an intern abroad and some ( read I ) didn’t …of course you have again…
So amidst all this sulking lets see what did I do in these holidays…Hmmmm… sleeping at 2 in the night…getting up at 10…being pampered by my mom like anything…eating just about everything on my wish list… sleeping at odd times…. chatting and Oops! I forgot occasional work on my project report.
Am I still sulking???…I don’t know actually…
Its hard to erase pictures of some smiling faces literally spoiling the beautiful scenery (sorry I had to write this.. please don’t ask for ANY explanations… ( no offence meant please) )
So are you people enjoying….ofcourse you are, why am I even asking this..… But then lets look at this…am I enjoying myself?
And I small voice inside me says…. yes… I am…. and that is what… is important…So why this dig at all…well…coz maybe sometimes…its just so liberating…to vent out your frustration for no reason… :)
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
A Beginning...
A strange idea came to me – I thought a few days back that why not start a blog of my own. I mean, c’mon every single person seems to write it ( no offence meant… :P ). But things are generally very slow for me to accept. Maybe because I think too much ( which is not that bad a habit J ). So it took me several days of pondering and several (literally) gtalk status messages for me to actually start even thinking about writing…again..
Caution : I am not writing to please or offend any one…I am just writing…
But there is one more ( and maybe more attractive ) reason I am writing or to put it in better words being persuaded to write. I read in some newspaper about professional bloggers. Well the idea stuck me as very cool. I had this passion for writing but I never really harnessed it nor did I put any efforts. While preparing for JEE I actually STOPPED writing altogether. In fact I was so apprehensive about writing again that even after making it to IITD (my dream J ) and becoming a BSP representative of my hostel I actually didn’t write anything substantial. So am I writing anyways??? Is it because of the Chetan Bhagat phenomenon ( by the way … I didn’t like the novel..) or the professional bloggers thing ( actually I was thinking how much of Amitab Bacchan’s blog is actually written by him or for that matter of any celebrity ) or is it because of so many gtalk status messages ( See I m thinking again .. sigh )
Whatever it may be… I think if I pen down a few of my thoughts it wont do (me ) any harm :P… and I m definitely open to critics (hmm.. maybe)
Seriously I don’t think how I managed to write such boring stuff. I envy those who can write simply captivating stuff. I have read a lot and have read a variety of books. Sometimes its so difficult to understand how can anyone write such complicated high-in-vocabulary sentences ( read any of the Salman Rushdie’s if you don’t agree with me on this). Sometimes I feel so good to be not the one who write them but ti read and comment on them…its so much more easier.Let’s wait and watch how much of my writing is accepted (or not accepted rather :P ) and how much I even continue with this. By the way Vikram Seth got a whooping 14 corers for his next novel ‘A Suitable Girl’. Amazing how people get paid… for nothing but writing… It raises a lot of hope you know :P :P ;)
Caution : I am not writing to please or offend any one…I am just writing…
But there is one more ( and maybe more attractive ) reason I am writing or to put it in better words being persuaded to write. I read in some newspaper about professional bloggers. Well the idea stuck me as very cool. I had this passion for writing but I never really harnessed it nor did I put any efforts. While preparing for JEE I actually STOPPED writing altogether. In fact I was so apprehensive about writing again that even after making it to IITD (my dream J ) and becoming a BSP representative of my hostel I actually didn’t write anything substantial. So am I writing anyways??? Is it because of the Chetan Bhagat phenomenon ( by the way … I didn’t like the novel..) or the professional bloggers thing ( actually I was thinking how much of Amitab Bacchan’s blog is actually written by him or for that matter of any celebrity ) or is it because of so many gtalk status messages ( See I m thinking again .. sigh )
Whatever it may be… I think if I pen down a few of my thoughts it wont do (me ) any harm :P… and I m definitely open to critics (hmm.. maybe)
Seriously I don’t think how I managed to write such boring stuff. I envy those who can write simply captivating stuff. I have read a lot and have read a variety of books. Sometimes its so difficult to understand how can anyone write such complicated high-in-vocabulary sentences ( read any of the Salman Rushdie’s if you don’t agree with me on this). Sometimes I feel so good to be not the one who write them but ti read and comment on them…its so much more easier.Let’s wait and watch how much of my writing is accepted (or not accepted rather :P ) and how much I even continue with this. By the way Vikram Seth got a whooping 14 corers for his next novel ‘A Suitable Girl’. Amazing how people get paid… for nothing but writing… It raises a lot of hope you know :P :P ;)
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